And I realize just how beautiful you are

Facts:

- it's 4:03 p.m.

- 84°F / 29°C

I loooove the texan weather. When I wake up in the morning I still show my german roots with the look out of the window, seeing clouds and ask Syd: Do you think it's cold?
And Syd just says: Mara, this is texas, it will never be cold again until october. And at like 6:45 we're walking out the door and it feels SO good in my t-shirt and pants.
Haaaa, I am in love, every day.
So soccer is over, but we're working on our beach bodies now during 7th period. I'm not sure if y'all in Germany have heard about insanity (it's an work out), but it's gonna make me have a niiiice body. 

going prom dress shopping

 

yup, we're cute

Sooo, I've my prom dress, and let me say that: It's yellow, but I'm gonna look good. ;)

I really wanna tell y'all that God is great. Everything is gonna work out, and he is the good full of miracles. We might won't understand everything, but we gonna end up perfectly fine, in the right place, with the perfect timing.
Before I came here I didn't really believe in God, but he did so much for me. I mean I've always been so lucky, and now I know that I'm blessed.
I've to say I always thought you either believe in science or in God, but it's possible to believe in both. And I'm happy to have him in my life, or to know that I have him, because whenever somethign is really bothering me I can tell myself that he is gonna fix it and everything is gonna work out.
This past week I was off on wednesday - friday, because the juniors had to take their taks test (a test you've to take for the state in order to pass your junior year) and I didn't have to go to school.
So on thursday Chase mom (Miss Tonia) asked me if I wanna come over and spend some time with her, so I went over there at like 12 and we had such a good talk. It was great.
I always feel so welcome and so loved from his parents.

eastern with my cousins

I really like being here and how I changed. I like me much more since I'm guided by God. It sounds so weird, but when I heard stuff like this before I always thought those people are dumb and just don't accept the reality. Which is so not true, maybe it's just the other way around. I was so negativ in life that I couldn't be happy for whatever gives people joy.

However, I'm much more positiv and try to not complain that much anymore.
I really wanna tell y'all a story a woman told me in bible study. I'm not gonna say her name, because I don't know if she wants others to know it was her, but this story was the last step, for me, to believe in him (yes, there are steps, it's not that you change from one to another day, its a process.).
Anyways, back to the story (haha, my biology teacher teached me how to get off-topic), she got pregnant and after quite awhile the doctor told her that there is something wrong with her baby. It ended up being very "dramatic", because the doctor said if she keeps the baby it is very likely for her to die, and if she would get an abortion she will be fine.
She went through a very rough time, trying to decide which is the right thing to do. And she went to a christian doctor to get another opinion, and he told her to not keep the baby. Well her husband told her he's gonna be there for her, no matter how she's gonna decide, and she decided to keep the baby and see what God's plan is.
She ended up loosing the baby, but she says she is SO glad she kept the baby, because she couldn't live with the fact that she killed her own child and didn't give it a chance and not trusting in God. And I mean she did trust in him, and he took it, it was his plan for her to not have the baby.
I think how she went through this very difficult time, trying to make the right decision and then just remembering what the bible says. She had so much faith, she put her life in his hands and he guided her through that.
I'm not sure if y'all as amazed as I am, but I'm pretty amazed.

The other day we had a water balloon fight in soccer and it was so much fun.

Jordy and me

My first steak since august

I've to admit I miss german food. It's like I learned how much I love eating bread; ikea hot dogs (not like eat them a lot, but they're yummy); potato, tomato, and mozzarella smash; spinach; sauerkraut; gruehnkohl; steak; and I bet I forgot so so so much, but some days I'm just thinking about all these delicious food I didn't appreciate as much as I do now.

Alrighty guys, one more thing I wanna tell y'all. I found this really cool thing on my friends blog, it's like a challenge. You answer a question every day for a whole year, and then after a year you can see how much you changed, what you thought, and what your priorities were. I wish I would have discovered it earlier so i could reflect more about my exchange year, and just see how much I changed and how my views changed, but better now than never.
And I'm planing on posting the questions on here, so be ready for my answers. Some questions are hard for me to think about the "right" thing in this particular moment, but I'll always give my best to represent my opinion (sorry if it's just one side sometimes, sometimes one side of my mind takes up my whole mind and tries to make other opinions be quiet).

Day 5: something you would change about the world

America and germany shoudln’t be so far apart. Haha. Make people follow and believe in God.

Day 4: How you think your life would change if you achieved your dream

I think I would have new dreams. Without a dream my life wouldn‘t make any sense, because what would I chase then? Dreams keep people going.

Day 3: what you think your reason for being here is

I’m not sure, but God have brought me here so I am where I need to be/ and where I belong.

Day 2: something that’s illegal but you think it should be legal

let’s switch that around and say: something thats legal that should be illegal; smoking. It’s basically a drug like crack and doesn’t have any medical devices.

Day 1: hopes, dreams, and plans for the next 365 days with a picture of yourself

being successful in school, reaching my goals and never forget anything I‘ve experienced in america; staying here forever, be born with the feeling of belonging; run your race and don’t get out of your line (april, 26 2012).

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TCunuL58odQ&ob=av2e
David Crowder Band - How he loves us

Listen to it, it's a great song, a great person with a great voice, played in my youth group at church by a guy with an awesome voice. I love it.