I wanna hold your hand forever

Facts:

- it's 3:32 pm

- 90°F / 32°C

It's HOT in texas now. Today it got a little cooler but usually we're in the 100 with our temperatures. The problem isn't that its so hot, its that its very human, which makes the air stand and you feel sticky and start sweating really fast.

So I decided to do cross country during the summer. It starts at 7:30 in the morning and its at the school for free. We run 3 miles right now, but it will increse, than we do a 7 minute abb workout, some more running drills and more abbs. I do over 100 push ups every day now.
At first I thought I'll be good once the big running part is over, but those abbs kill you and those running drills...uh oh.
But I love it, waking up kinda early, being active for 2 hours and then just being awake and I get this good feeling that I already had a good workot. I'm sad I didn't do track or cross country during school, but I'm glad I get to do it now.

This is how bad I sweat after cc. Gross. Haha.

The other day Syd, Avery, and me went to galveston (which is by the ocean [ok, Lp is right by the ocean, too. But the water in galveston is green instead of brown. Haha]) and some of our aunts rented a beach house for 2 weeks. So we decided to go down there, see our family, and have fun at the beach.
Our cousin Steven brought his jet ski up there, and it was SO much fun. I rode it and he taught me how to drive it, it was super fun.

Yesterday I decided to put some stuff together I most likely won't usse before I leave, but I wanna take it home.
I'm not sure if I have to pay for a second suit case, but I'm not planning on having extra luggage. I mean I don't have that many clothes, and I can buy clothes in germany, too. So I'm not gonna take too many clothes back.
I found a bunch of stuff among other things I found "Buchstaben Suppe" my mom sent me couple weeks ago, and I decided to cook it today after cross country.

I also found the letter Lennart sent to me a bunch of months ago. I smiled when I saw it. I saw Lisa's, too and looked at all the pictures she gave me with it, too.
I also threw all my school papers away. uhhh, I am so glad I can get rid of that. And it reminded me of how my english has improved since I'm here and how many new friends I made and even how I changed. I changed a lot during this year. But I believe I became a better person, I accepted God in my life, and he is teaching me so much. Whenever I get upset about something I remind myself why I am upset and if its worth it, or how I would feel in the opposite situation. And I tell people that I understand what they're trying to tell me, but I wanna show them my point, too. It's way easier since I changed and I'm not so impulsive anymore.

I don't know if y'all noticed, but I love curlying my hair. Even if it's shorter now, I really like it curled, and Chase does, too.

This was just an experiment, I usually do it with the curler

Last sunday, when I was at church, I thought about the song "amazing grace" and how it probably is their second national anthem. Because everyone in america knows this song, everyone. And I have to say more texas' citizens believe in God than in germany. Believing and having God in your life, being a christian is somethign very good here, especially when you're my age. People look up to you when you found God and most of the guys don't even wanna date someone who isn't a christian, which is good in my opinion.
I mean, yes, american teenagers do have sex, and most of them don't wait till marriage, and some maybe don't even go to church once a week. It might sounds hypocritical to be a christian and do those things, but its better to be like that than live like most of the teenagers in germany, waiting for the next weekend so they can get drunk again and meet some stranger who they can have a romantic relationship with... In germany it is emberassing to believe in God, or you get judged when you go to church every sunday. And I think that is so wrong. America or texas is doing a way better job than germany is.
I love having God with me, and since I have him I became a better person and grew more mature, and that is what I wanna show kids in germany. I'm still gonna live for him and show people how great it is to accept him. And I am determind to find a church I kinda like (even if american church is SO much better than german church) and go every sunday morning.
Yes, texas showed me God, and I will show God to everyone who's around me, because he is beautiful.

Yesterday I talked to Lisa for awhile and Max decided to lay in bed with me, and so I took silly pictures to show it to her, but stupid facebook didn't wanna cooperate, so now I'll share them with all of y'all.

Yesterday I saw a funny picture on twitter, and it is SO true, so here is some southern grammar for all of y'all ;)

Day 65 - one random fact about yourself
I describe the shape of my head as a football, since I’m like 6.

Day 64 - favorite thing about last month

Prom (may, 19). I liked all the getting ready and looking pretty thing. Like you start early in the morning, to get your hair done, and everyone is so excited for you and then in the afternoon my boyfriend picked me up, he told me I look beautiful and we got to spend a good night together. It was a lot of fun.

Day 63 - the song with the most plays on your iTunes
Its kinda old, because I never play music from my iTunes, but ist
Eigentlich wollte er nie ein Liebeslied schreiben – SDP (june, 26 2012)

Day 62 - how many keys are on your key ring

I don’t have a key ring here in texas, because we always walk in the house through our garage door. But in germany I have 2 keys on my key ring, one for the house door and one for my bike (the lock that I got), oh and I have a sheepworld sheep on it with a little bell.

Day 61 - One of your most prized possesions

I’m not quite sure..my whole room is pretty expensive. But just one thing that was super expensive…ohhh my prom dress. It was so expensive.  (june, 24 2012)

Day 60 - A YouTube video you absolutely love and why
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytXTiYgWqwM  it was just so much fun. And yeah, that is me. Super goofy.

Day 59 - What color are your favorite pair of flip-flops
I owned one pair, it was black, but our dog chewed it up.

Day 58 - Places you want to visit and why
Wyoming – it has always been my dream to see Wyoming, because there was a horse I really liked that was called Wyoming. Later I discovered that it was a state in the US
Norway – Because I’ve been there before andd it is just breath taking.
Greece – Just because my mom and I went to some islands, and I love it.
South Africa – My mom has been there and it looked very good

I can list a bunch of foreign countries, but I’m just gonna summarize it by saying that I wanna travel in life. 

Day 57 - what is your definition of happiness
A state where you feel free and can’t think about something better or wanna change anything.

 Day 56 - something you did as a child that other people remember you for

I moved since I was a child, so I can tell yall my funniest story. It was with my „sister“ Lisa, and we lived on a very big property, well this one family had a cat and Lisa and me played with it the other ay and all of the sudden it scratched her. Both of us got really mad, because it was for no reason and so we wanted revenge. We went to the back of the house and got a bucket full of sand and tracked the cat down. It was sitting in front of ist owners house and we, not thinking about it, threw the sand on the cat. But the cat jumped up and ran away and all that was left was a big pile of sand in front of their house. So Lisa and me just decided to walk away and play, when the owner steped out of their house he screamed both of our names and the both of us said: We didn’t do it! And he responded: Well I didn’t even said anything about the sand…
It was so emberrassing, because now he knew we did that and we lied about it. But whenever one of us tells the story now we can’t stop laughing.

Day 55 - a passage from a book that has touched you

I wish I had the book „I am the messenger“ by Markus Zusak with me, but I dont.
It's not a big thing, but I guess it's true--big things are often just small things that are noticed.

I'm not the messenger at all.
I'm the message. (june, 18th 2012)

Day 54 - Your definition of love

You feel it. You feel love when you meet a person you’re willing to put yourself second, you wanna know what they are thinking and you’re glad to have them. Healthy love makes you a great person and teaches you a bunch of things. I like love because it has taught me a lot, and it shows you how wonderful life can be.

Day 53 - your day, in great detail

I honestly don’t remember my daturday, but I can give you my Monday:
I woke up late, because Chase called me for the 2nd time now. We were supposed to go up to the school at 7 (he for strenght and conditioning, I for cross country) and be there at 7:30. It was 7:15 and I woke up, got out of bed, put my clothes on, brushed my teeth and called Chase. He came back to come and get me, I think because he knows how excited and anxious I have been the past couple days for my first day doing cc. He said it’s ok, and I calmed down. I grabbed a water and there he was, coming down my street. I still didn’t put my shoes on, but I didn’t care. I didn’t want to make the both of us late on our first day. And we didn’t, we were there at 7:28. My coach bunny explained the route for today (3miles run. I was super scared of that. Because coach Bunny is known for being hard on us students.). And there we were, standing on the street about to start when she looked at me and said: Who are you? I introduced myself real quick and we all started running. My soccer friend Monica was there and we decided to be running buddies. After the run (I finished in 27 min. Yaaaay) we went to the track and did a whole lot of abbs. It was no bueno. 100 push ups (HAHAHHA, in germany I was happy with myself when I did 3), 200 crunshes and sit ups, 1 minute planking, russian twist, and a lot of other ugly things. Since i woke up late I didn’t have enough time to go pee in the morning, which means I had to run 3 miles with a full bladder and do abbs with it. After that I had enough courage to speak up and ask if I may can go to the restroom, and hallelulejah I could. I felt like I’m gonna pass out during the stretches and running drills we did afterwards. I did not feel good. But after another session of abbs we were dissmissed and Chase took me back home. I took a shower and felt better, actually amazing.
After that I decided to be a couch potato for alittle and watch house. Later I went with Jordy to a bank and back, where it hit me and I got super tired and fell asleep on the couch. After I woke up it was already 4:40 and I went with Sydney to Tylers baseball game, where I surprisingly saw Chase. I asked him to come over, but sadly he already made plans with his friend, but since I am trying to be a better person I thought about it a while and told him I can understand that he doesn’t wanna dump his friend and so afterwards me and Sydney got home, ate dinner, watched the bachlorette, I did the dishes and she went to Tylers house. Now I am laying on my bed upstairs, finishing my questions and I’m about to go to sleep. Tomorrow is gonna start earlier,with me hopefully waking up to my alarm at 6:30. Goodnight everyone.

Day 52 - if you didn't have an age, how old do you think you would be
In my early 20’s.

Day 51 - Describe your future wedding
I want a big wedding, I wanna get married outside in a pretty garden and have a big house in the french villa style behind me, I want my wedding dress to be long, white and strapless. I already have a kinda version of my dress and ist definitely gonna be classy. I’m not sure how ist gonna turn out to be, but I want that day to be a lot of fun. 

Day 50 - why you are doing this challenge
Because I wanna see how my views, my life, my perspectives, and just my personality changed over a year. I wish I could have done it earlier tho, because then I could have seen more of how I changed over my exchange year.

 Day 49 - are you a lover or a fighter
Lover

This is what I come home to every morning after cc

So Beau is sleeping in our room again, and tonight he chewed my toms up...

I like the chance you take

Facts:

- it's 2:08 p.m.

- 93°F / 34°C

Daaaang guys, it's already june. It feels weird, just couple moments ago it was new years, and I started new year in a hot tub, or I just met Chase in january (I believe). I'm not sure how all this happened, but I'm so glad it did. I cannot tell yall enough about how much I changed my views and attitude.
Well let me tell yall what was going on since my last blog post.

Chase and me got all dressed up again for his baseball banquet. It was fun, and uhhh guys, I really like this guy. I mean I love this guy. Haha. And yeah, we do fight, but I always know its gonna be fine and we'll make it through. I never stop liking him when we fight, never. I never think about breaking up, because thats just not an option for me, because I know we will be okay.

Yeah, and then the day I was afraid of came. The last day of school. I tried to get around it by going in during the finals week (from tuesday - thursday, for people who missed to many days of school [more than 2] or didn't have an 80 in their class have to take their final exam.) to get my yearbook signed and get some papers. So I avoided crying on my last school day. I'm very glad.

Brandon and me

Look how long my hair has gotten (don't get used to it, I already cut it off a whole lot.).
The weekendafter we got out of school we had a cousin sleepover at my Neenee's house and Syd and me stole Kyles hats in his car. ;)

last wednesday of school

fatty Maxer and me

My short hair...and me trying to get some sleep in after a wedding shower.

So the class of 2012 graduated june 1, which means my sister and my boyfriend are seniors now. It's gonna be weird to hear how they do as seniors. But I knw that they will be wonderful seniors, just like most of my friends.

Mayra, Sydney, Marina, and me had a girls night. We ate at Buffalo Wild Wings (def. my favorite place. I LOOOOVE wings) and then we stayed at mayras aunts house. Well Marina videotaped the whole night and edited a video. I love it. I'm super weird, but we had so much fun.
We took billions of pictures, too.

Well we're having fun. ;) I hope it works, let me know if it doesn't but here is the video Marina edited by all the endless minutes she videotaped that night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ytXTiYgWqwM

Sooo. I know it's hard to enjoy life sometimes, but try to be positiv and impress someone with your attitude.

Day 48 - Your life story in 3 words
Live. Laugh. Love (june, 11 2012)

Day 47 - What was your last halloween costume
I was a 80’s girl for our YFU halloween party.

 Day 46 - what makes you smile
Chase, Sydney, the Coe’s, Eva, Lisa, Mo, my friends, sun, beach/pool, jokes. A lot. I try to enjoy life more, and smile through everything.

Day 45 - the last time you tried something new
I try a lot of new things since I am here. I try to get out of my comfort zone and explore new things, who can be so great. Like the other day I wore a dress to school, or I try to talk a lot to people and tell them when I have a problem with them. Trying new things can make you a better person.  (June, 8th 2012)

Day 44 - when was the last time that you wore a dress?
On Wednesday (2 days ago) to the beach. I was wearing the dress Sydney got for me before we went on the cruise for christmas.

Day 43 - is it possible to lie without saying a word?
Yes. Silence can be one of the loudest sounds you can make. Whenever a person doesn’t answer it might be becase they’re ashamed of what they did, they can’t admit to it. I don’t know how to describe it, but not saying a word can be a lie.

Day 42 - Your driver license picture
I don’t have a drivers license, but I have a passport. I cant find the picture right now, I will add it when I have time.

Day 41 - the last time you wrote a letter and to who
It was to my math teacher, Ms. Metz, on May 28th. I love her, and how she showed me what a wonderful miracle math can be.

Day 40 - what are features you get complimented on a lot
That I can make people smile, even if they had a bad day; that I can forgive; that I’m a good friend; that I’m open minded

Day 39 - Why you think you've learned more from the good or bad
That is hard to tell, but I think I learned more from the bad. Because people realize the bad more and the bad makes me try to change  it to the good. When my life or something is good I’m not thinking about it, I’m trying to enjoy it as long as possible.

Day 38 - your thoughts on your generation
My generation is way too ignorant. There are many cool kids, but we all have to learn how to take better care of the world and each other. But if we show more interest and more ambitioned we can be a pretty good generation.

Day 37 - who are you
Good question. I think ist hard for ourselves to tell who we are, its easier for our friends to tell us how they see us. But I  hope they I would be described as a faithfull, happy person who likes to think.
I found my bible verse couple days ago; Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord. –Hebrews 12:14

Day 36 - what do you think about your friends
Pretty amazing, great, always there, y’all should be jealous, or become friends with me so we can share friends.

Day 35 - what is your favorite poptart flavor
american question…I just tried cinnamon brown sugar, so I have no right to judge. But ist probably the unhealthiest thing I know of. I talked about it in my biology class, and this one guy eats one poptart EVERY morning…

Day 34 - Your horoscope for today and whether you think it's accurate

There comes a time when you just have to put your foot down concerning a certain issue, and today could include that time. If you have really made it clear to someone that you aren't interested, there shouldn't be a problem. However, you may have just given out double messages.

Haha, this doesnt fit at all in my life situation, I’m not sending any double messages to anyone, and no one is bugging me about dating me, because I’m happy with Chase. And everyone knows that.  (may, 28th 2012)

Day 33 - Someone who really hurt me
I think most of the people who hurt me didn’t wanna hurt me, so I can forgive them. But when comes to my mind is my moms ex boyfriend, I think I was in 9th grade when she had him, but I hated him, and we did not get along at all.

Day 32 – How many pictures do you have in your room
In the room me and Syd share are  not that many, but in my room in germany I have quite a bunch. I have a whole wall for pictures or things I like.

Day 31 - a bit about your social life outside from tumblr
This question is just terrible, tumbler has NOTHING to do with someones social life, from my point of view. My social life is pretty good, I love being around people and hang out with my friends, because thats always fun. I like being around people I feel comfy with, and I always have a great time, especially with my friend here in texas, we always have a blast

Day 30 - 5 favorite girls names, 5 favorite boys names
Claire, Elizabeth, Katharina (Katy), Kalie, Grace, Brooke, Luna
Lee, Ben, Chase, Alexander, Moritz

Day 29 - A date you'd love for someone to take you on
Chase took me on couple dates and I loved all of them. I think ist not about where you’re going, it is about the person you’re going with. I mean you can go on a perfect date, but feel absolutly no connection, and that makes it no fun. But Chase and me went to like buffalo wild wings for vaentines day, because I love wings and it was great. And afterwards he took me to get froozen yoghurt, I mean how much better can it get? Haha, he’s the best. I still believe that our lazy days (when we’re just at his house, watching house or a movie, or baseball) are the best. Ist so much more us.

Listen to this song, it's a super cute song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sG8jO0FWfCk

Kyle Andrews - you always make me smile

I was drawing a mud bikini on Chase

You make me smile

Facts:

- it's 4:58 p.m.

- 93°F/34°C

Well Jordy Coe is home from college, and she's baking a lot, school is almost over. Everyone can't wait and is counting the days left (I've never done that.) of school, but I feel like whenever school is over I'll be almost gone. I'm not looking forward to the end of school at all, because I'm not gonna be back in the end of august like everyone else. It feels weird. 
May, 5th was the last YFU orientation, and to be honest I didn't have the patience to sit there and listen to people talking about their problems again. I just felt like I'm at the wrong place, because nothing really did help me. I mean who doesn't know by now that it's gonna be different in germany, and that school will be difficult?

And later the day was soccer banquet which was fun. Chase and  me sat on a table with girls I really enjoy talking to, and so I had a very good night. I think we look pretty good in black. :)

My weekends have been busy, that weekend was soccer banquet, last weekend was prom, and this weekend is baseball banquet. But I'm not gonna lie, I enjoy dressing up with Chase, looking nice, go and meet with our friends, have dinner and talk a lot. So I'm ready for baseball banquet, because I think it's gonna be lots of fun.
We also went to a wedding (uncle lance), and it was a very casual wedding. They got married at her parents house (which is AMAZING) in their backyard. .We all were wearing summer dresses and I had fun. It was something different, but I liked it. I wouldn't wanna marry like that, because I always dreamed of a white dress and a church decorated with flowers, everyone in pretty dresses, but no one can reach my dress. Yeah...haha, I want a big wedding. :)

Marina and me had fun drawing on Lincoln in 5th period.

And then there was mother's day. We got home from the wedding and cooked dinner (Syd, Jordy, and me) which was pretty good. We cooked a chicken-artichoke lasagne, and Jordy also baked a lemon cake.

I don't like when I tell one of my friends that I'll post a new blog post pretty soon, and then I find the time to and one incident changes my whole mood for the day, and I can't tell y'all all the great things, because my mind is somewhere else, trying to figure life back out.
It sucks. I hate posting when I'm irritated or something is bothering me. Uuuuurgh. Frustrating.
But however.

Prom was may, 19th and it was pretty good. The thing after wasn't, because we were at a condo and people just decided to not follow the 2 rules we had. But I enjoyed prom a lot.

Ohhh, and my youngest sister cut her hair off 10 inches to donate it for cancer kids. I'm glad she did that and she looks great with her new hairstyle.

And just how I promised all the questions I answered since my last blog post.[...]

Day 28 - Something that makes you really angry
Ignorance, because it impacts not just the ignorant person it impacts the environment and people around them.

Day 27: A person I wished lived closer and why
Chase, and the Coe’s, because they’re my family. I love them with all my heart, and I don’t wanna give them up (not completely, but I kinda do when I leave). I don’t want to be so far apart from the one’s I love. (may, 21st 2012)

Day 26: 5 things you’re looking forward to

1.  being able to swim in Sydy boyfriends pool with her, Tyler, and Chase in may (it is awesome, and since he plays football he can lift me up and all that kind of stuff. LOVE IT)

2.  Getting out of school, even if that means that my time is almost over…

3.  Every day he will let me experience

4. Showing people how great God is

5. Live life at its fullest

Day 25: the last movie you watched

The vow. I like the movie, even if I was getting so frustrated with the girl who lost their memory. I felt so sorry for her husband and thought she should feel very lucky to have someone who isn’t gonna break their marriage commitment and stays with her, trying to win her over again. And all his fighting was worth it in the end, even if the story ended different than everyone thinks…

Day 24: your favorite 10 people right now and why

1. Sydney Ann Coe – she’s my sister/best friend. She loved me before I even met her, and we’re so close. She is my sister and I can’t imagine life without her. The fun times and especially all the different times, because she’s always there to listen to me. I love her.

2. Chase Smith – because he respects me, and cares about me just how I am. He’s the sweetest guy, with his awesome blue eyes (even if they’re sooo red from his contacts. Haha,) and the smile he smiles for me when I’m frustrated, because he knows I love that smile. Just all the things he does for me, and how good we are together.

3. Dee & Vanessa – yes, they just come together for me. We’ve so much fun in 1st and 6th period (Mexican, Cuban, and german humor ;) ) and they just made my life here what it is now. They have me smile and love soccer just as much as they do, hate German when we’ve to run in practice, and than love her again. Both of them are gorgeous ladies I truly love.

4. My mom – because she’s the best exchange student mom, she’s so patient with me, understands when something is bothering me (I don’t talk to her then, because I told myself to not come to my mom with my problems, so she won’t be worried, and I learn how to manage them on my own.), she waits for me to come to her. She’s not the annoying parent who always tries to force their kid to tell them whats happening, she’s pretty „chill“ (yeah, I’ve black friends) and an amazing woman/mom. I love you, mom.

5. God – he has done so much for me, and helps me out. He’s watching me, and helps me growing in every aspect. God is good.

6. Lisa Helmold – she is such an amazing friend. She lets me know whats going on in her life, and I love that. She asks me how I am doing, and is just interested in what I get to experience here. She has done so many wonderful things for me, and her, her dad, and boomi are like…the people I feel really close to, because they accepted the crazy me. And I love them.

7. Linh Mueller – I guess she’s just this one person I’m impressed by. She lives her life day by day (it has a great meaning when you think about it) and is thankful for everything, even if she could have so many reasons to be mad at the world and dissapointed, but she takes the situations she was put into and lives them/learns from them. She impresses me.

8. Lennart Wiese – because he’s just such a cutie. Whenever we skype and he is smiling that smile, it just brightens my day. I’m so glad I got to meet him and Linhi and that we were able to stay friends and hang out after our amazing orientation. He’s just this one guy who’s girlfriend will be very lucky.

9. Eva – she is an amazing woman who just rules the world with her prettyness. If I wouldn’t be as close as I am with her I would be super jealous at her. She’s pretty, funny, and successful. I am just amazed by her and love to be with her. She is my favorite adult, who I feel comfy around. I love her so much. She has tought me a lot.

10. Markus Brief – Just because he has a great personality, and we can watch Sean the sheep together, eat pizza all week long with 10 ice cream posickles every day. We share so much, and I love his house, I even love to clean it. He doesn’t make me feel dumb like many adults, he doesn’t look down to me, we meet right in the middle, and I love how he treats me. He is a great person.

Day 23: a month/year of your life when you were happiest and why

August 2011 – 2012, because I figured out where I belong and met amazing people, so many good things happened to me my exchange year, and I learnd a lot. (May, 17 2012)

Day 22: how you judge intelligence

Intelligence is when you have the ability to think about something and have the will to figure it out, and remember it.

Day 21: How does your favorite shirt look like

I’m seriously thinking about that right now. Its probably from Sydney, because I steal her shirts all the time…it’s this pinkish shirt, it’s kinda loose on me, but I really like the color and how it makes my hair look lighter, and I can wear my favorite flats with it (brown with flowers on them)

Day 20: what you think makes someone beautiful

A pretty smile, and pretty eyes help, too.

Day 19: your thoughts on your family

I’m thankful what my mom has done for me, and I love her with all my heart. My dad…um, not existing.

Day 18: why you made your blog, why you still have it

I want to keep my friends uptadet, because I already knew I’m not gonna manage my time here so well that I’ve enough time to send e-mails to all of them. So whenever they want to know what is happening they can look at my blog, and if they feel the need to talk to me they can always e-mail me, and I’ll try to e-mail back as soon as possible.

Day 17: your idol and why you look up to them

There are so many people I look up to for different reasons.
I look up to Sydney, because she’s beautiful, funny, and nice. She knows what she wants to do, and gives her best to make it come true. She has a good relationship to her boyfriend, and treats her friends very well.
I look up to my mom for being such a good mother, and making my dream to come to america true, even if she rather would like me to be home with her.
I look up to people who try their best in school; fight for others; aren’t fake; do everything to reach their dream, even when others tell them it’s stupid or not realistic; have the ability to see something good in the worst situations

Day 16: someone you trust

Sydney Ann Coe, because she was incredibly open with me right from the beginning, and we had this special bond I can’t describe. I love her so much, and even if I don’t show her that every day, I’m so glad I got to meet her and that we became so close. I love her.

Day 15: a song that makes you cry and why
You and Tequila by Kenny Chesney and Grace Potter (first song I heard when we drove home from the Houston airport)

Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all

God, I believe in God. It is so wonderful for me to say that, because earlier I couldn’t believe in him, and then I came to america and slowly but surely I found my way to him. I’m so glad to put my life in someone’s hands, in someones hands I can trust and be sure that he will take good care.

Day 13: your favorite quote

I’m still looking for my bible verse. I’ll add it on whenever I found it.

Day 12: the best advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

Tell God about it. Because God listens, and he doesn’t ignore you, he’ll help, if thats the best thing to do. He won’t leave you alone with it, he’s definitely gonna give you the best answer. I realize it after the problem is solved, that God solved it for me. It’s pretty cool, because you wonder why he didn’t do anything and then you realize: Oh he solved it. That was so easy, I should have gone to him in the first place.

Day 11: the worst advice you’ve ever heard, or ever been given

Just wait. Sometimes that can be good, but it’s killing me to just not do anything, because I keep thinking about it and it stresses me out. So I just can’t wait stuff out, I’ve to talk about it, to clearify my point and understand the other one’s point. And then I’m good, for most of the time.

Day 10: what you think when you hear the words “be yourself”

How? I don’t know how/who I am. Sometimes I just don’t wanna be myself. And isn’t that a process that takes you your whole life; to figure out who you are, to create an identity and make other people notice this identity? (may, 4 2012)

Day 9: things that make you happy

My sister/best friend, my family, Chase, good music, Mo, good weather/sun, life

Day 8: things that make you sad

The thought about leaving,

Day 7: a show or a movie that has changed you, and how

I can’t think of a movie, but the book ‚Lucas‘ and ‚I am the messanger‘ changed me a lot, just by realizing how silent intelligent other people can be, how complex thoughts are, and how I want to be (it’s weird that I set my role model as a man, and NO I don’t wanna be a guy, but I hate typical girly girls.).

Day 6: something you would like to change about yourself

I would like to have lighter hair, more patieance, the ability to go home and study, be more competitive, and remember myself every day how blessed I am. 

Yeah, y'all have a bunch to catch up with...Enjoy life. Even iff it seems difficult sometimes.
"This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." -Psalm 118:24

Maybe it will work this time, and y'all can actually listen to it:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=53bOAGMifNo
Mat Kearney - Ships in the Night